After having spent the past few days sick at home, I realized just how easy it is for me to fall into complacency with my life. It had been almost 4 days that I was stuck inside my apartment and the walls seemed be squeezing in around me by the time I was well enough to go back to work. The most troubling part about that situation, however, was that I thought to myself multiple times how great it would be to just do this every day.
Sit at home and just watch things on various platforms.
That’s when I realized I had become too comfortable with the life I am currently living, especially when it comes to my career ambitions. I have been working the same job for the past two years and I don’t necessarily like it. I never aspired to be in this field, but it was my best option for paying off those inevitable student loans that my generation is too familiar with. But now that I’ve finished those payments and have the ability to move around in my work life, I haven’t. I’ve remained at the same job because of the steady paycheck and the comfort at knowing exactly what is expected of me on a daily basis.
What happened to dreaming? Have I really reduced myself and my creativity to a yearly salary? I’m almost 25 and I don’t feel like I’ve gotten any closer to doing what I love, or at least working in a field close to what I love. And of course I understand that it’s pretty difficult to end up doing what you love, especially when there are so many people out there with the same dreams and skill sets as you, but that should be pushing me to fight for it more. Instead, I’ve shut down and let myself sink into the metaphorical couch that is my life at the moment.
Seeing as September has always felt like the month of renewal and revelations (still living by that school schedule) I’ve decided that I want to make some active changes in my life and move toward where I want to be or where I can see myself being while maintaining my happiness. It’s easy to do a job strictly for the money, but to actually enjoy it is the hard part.
I don’t know if anyone else feels the same way I’ve been feeling, but I’d love to hear about it. Let me know!